Where do dreams go when they die?

Where do dreams go when they die?
Do they have special place to hide?
So they can appear sometimes, to live out their glory?
Or are they stilled forever?
Where do memories go when they don’t die?
Do they live in the heads of people?
Or are they, trapped in boxes so deep, never to emerge?
Are they squished as soon as they rear their once pretty heads?
What happens to relationships when they curdle?
Are they dumped like memories and dreams?
Do the people in them ache and yearn for the happiness that once was?
Or is that killed too?
Perhaps they make new memories, new dreams
And pretend to revel in them till they die
Ignoring the plaintive ghost-cries of the old
Seeking a ‘happily ever after’
Not realising that it exists only in foolishly hopeful minds.


I do not worry when people not understand me, but but i do worry when i don't understand them ...

बहुत दिनों बाद..

आज बहुत दिनों के बाद कुछ कहने को जी कर रहा है
आज बहुत दिनों के बाद अपना कुछ सुनाने का जी कर रहा है
कुछ कहा- अनकहा
कुछ सुना- अनसुना
कुछ ऐसे लफ़्ज दिल से निकल कर दिल को छू जाएँ
कुछ अल्फ़ाज जो रूह में समा जायें
आज फिर बहुत दिनों के बाद
अपना लिखा पढ़ लेने का जी कर रहा है
मेरी बेपरवाह तमन्ना कह रही है खुद से
आओ सुनो मेरी बेपरवाह आरजू
ऊँची उडान भरने की है इसकी जुस्तजू
एक अरसे बाद जैसे मेरी आरजू को पंख मिले हैं
यूँ तो अल्फ़ाज बहुत हैं
किस्से बहुत हैं
शायद शब्द कम पड़ जाएँ
शायद वक्त कम पड़ जाएँ
पर फिर भी आज
अपने मन के द्वार खोलने का जी कर रहा है।।।
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Today, after a long time is to beet alive,
Today, after a while time is to tell something,
something said-unsaid,
Those words will touch heart out of the heart,
A few chosen words that penetrate into the spirit.
Today, after so many days again,
I want to read some self-written,
Regardless of my desire saying to me,
Come & listen my heedless wishes.
Its like, I want to fly high,
Coz, after a while I got my wings.
Like words are alot,
Stories alot,
Perhaps the words may fall short,
Perhaps time will be less,
Still today,
I want to open the doors of my heart...!!!

©Shailla'z Diary

आसान,मगर कठिन

बहुत आसान सी है लिखावट
मगर कठिन हैं लिखना
क्या और कितना समझा
मुश्किल सा हैं समझना
इन्तहा तक महसूस किया
फिर भी मगर
कुछ छुट सा गया
क्या कुछ कहा
क्या बचा रह गया
तुमने हंसा
हम हँसते रहे
खेले कूदे
नाचे गाये
पल पल जिए दिन और रात
बहुत कुछ लिखा
बहुत कुछ कहा
कितना कुछ रह गया
अनकहा सा
जिसे शब्दों में हम पिरो न सके।।
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So easily written
Difficult to write
So much I have understand
Still difficult to understand
So much I feel
How much I left to felt
So much we said
Still left something to say
You laughed
We laugh
We play and play
We cherished the day & night
So much to write
So much to say
So much to miss
But no enough words to fix.

©shailla'z Diary

Time Matters

Life has changed so much in the past two decades, there are so many things that have made our lives convenient as compared to the generation before us. There are washing machines, dish washers, smart phones, ebooks, online music libraries and the list go on.
Every Sunday have evolves. As a kid, Sunday meant funday, getting up early and getting ready in time to catch the morning 9.00am Disney cartoons on Doordarshan. Those 2-3 hours were precious and wouldn't do anything other than watch the cartoons on play. After all, this was the only time in the week we got to watch cartoons and if for any reason, be it homework or visiting relatives etc., a sacrifice was required to be made of these hours then it would be heartbreaking. It's a completely different story now.

And now, I watch all my favorite shows online at a time of my choice. With a high speed internet connection and content platforms, now I have that flexibility. There is a complete freedom to choose what I want to watch, when,where and how much I want to watch at particular time. Now no longer required to adjust my schedule to catch my shows.

Thanks to the new age of digital media I am able to do this without having to compromise on anything, which is definitely a better way of consuming content.
Being a working professional it is very important to have flexibility in life. One needs to adjust and adapt to the needs and requirements of the work, office and home.
It is important to constantly educate oneself to realize the significance of why a change needs to be accepted. Let's educate and bring in the new..!!

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पिछले दो दशकों में बहुत कुछ बदल गया है, ऐसी बहुत सी चीजें  हैं जिनकी वजह से हमारी पीढ़ी को काफी सुविधाजनक बना दिया है पिछ्ली पीढ़ी की तुलना में। अब हमारे पास कपड़े धोने की अलग मशीन है, बर्तन धोने की अलग, वैसे ही मनोरंजन के ढेरों साधन- स्मार्ट फ़ोन हैं, यहाँ तक की आप ऑनलाइन गानें सुन सकते हैं किताबें पढ़ सकते हैं। सूची बहुत लम्बी है।
अगर बात सिर्फ एक दिन "रविवार" की की जाये तो वो भी बहुत बदला हैं। जब मैं छोटी बच्ची थी, तब सन्डे का मतलब मनोरंजन दिवस होता था बहुत हंगामा जो चाहो काटने की आजादी मिल जाया करती थी और कोई पढाई करने को भी नहीं बोलता था।
सुबह सवेरे जल्दी उठ कर नह धो कर जल्दी नाश्ता कर बात जाया करते थे TV क सामने, अरे भाई ! सवेरे 9 बजे से Disney cartoon जो देखना होता था दूरदर्शन चैनल पर। वो 2-3 घंटे बहुत कीमती हुआ करते थे, उस वक्त कोई मेहमान घर न आये या माँ कोई काम न बता दे यही सोचते सोचते टीवी देखा करते थे।  और हो भी क्यों न यही तो बस एक दिन मिलता था जब अपनी मन अनुसार टीवी देख सकते थे या जो मन चाहे कर सकते थे। एक अलग ही कहानी थी ये भी बचपन की।
और अब, हम कुछ भी जो चाहें ऑनलाइन देख सकते हैं, बहुत से उच्च गति के इन्टरनेट कनेक्शन और सामग्री प्लेटफोर्म उपलब्ध जो हैं अब। विज्ञान ने बहुत तरक्की कर ली है जनाब।
मैं भी अपने मन चाहे प्रोग्राम ऑनलाइन देखती हूँ जब जी चाहे तब और जितना जी उतना, अपनी इच्छानुसार। पूरी आजादी है जो चाहे चुनो, जितना चाहे देखो, जब मन करे तब देखो। आजकल कोई जरुरत ही नहीं है अपनी अनुसूची को समायोजित करने की या ना देख पाने का दुःख मानाने की।
धन्यवाद है इस नए युग के डिजिटल मिडिया को, जिसकी वजह से इतना सब कुछ आसान बन पाया है। यह एक निश्तिंत रूप से उपभोक्ता सामग्री का एक बेहतर तरीका है जिसकी वजह से आज हम बिना समझोता किये अपनी पसंद के टीवी प्रोग्राम देखने में सक्षम हैं।
यह महत्वपूर्ण इसलिए भी है क्योंकि काम कर रहे पेशावर लोगों के जीवन में लचीलापन है। सभी के लिए  जरूरी है कि वो काम,  दफ्तर  और घर के अनुकूल अपनी जरूरतों को समायोजित करे।
सभी को लगातार परिवर्तन स्वीकार करने की भी जरूरत है और इसके लिए खुद को लगातार शिझित करते रहना भी महत्वपूर्ण होगा। चलो शिझित बने और बनाए।  नया अपनाएं।।

©Shailla'z Diary

Mera Shahar

मेरा शहर बुलंदशहर,

जो शहर होकर भी शहर सा न रहा

ये जिंदगी का एक पड़ाव सा था

जहां जीवन ठहरा रहा,

एक बेचैन हवा की तरह

जो बहती है, कभी ठहर सी जाती है

आगे बड़ते-बड़ते कहीं मुड़ सी जाती है

ये हजार गली चैबारों का शहर

कहीं मिलती हैं तो कहीं बिछड़ी सी रहतीं हैं

कभी कहीं गुमनाम अंधेरों में गुम सी।

वो शहर,

जहां कंकड़ कंकड़ में शिव हैं रमते

सुबह की अजान में कबीर हैं बसते

शाम के दोहे रवि हैं रचते

जहां कोने कोने कृष्ण के जश्न हैं मनते

और, मीरा के गीत हैं गुंजते।

इतिहास से जुडाव रखने वाला मेरा ये शहर

गवाह है आम-ए-कत्लों का,जिसने

मौत का मातम नहीं खुशियां मनाई ।

मेरा शहर, शहर नहीं

ये बातों का बंतगड है

एक जीवन रेखा है, जहां आप का स्वागत है ।।

©shailla'z diary

2015-Independence Day-Very Wishes!!

-69स्वतंत्रता दिवस की अनेक अनेक बधाईयाँ...॥

सुना  था कभी...

आज ही के दिन आज़ाद हुआ भारत देश

आज़ाद हुए थे हम।

गुलामी छुटी,हुआ नवयुग का निर्माण,

पर कैसी आज़ादी, कैसा नवयुग निर्माण?

अंग्रेज तो चले गए,मगर

भारत-राज के टुकड़े कर गए

एक टुकड़ा अलग हो गया

नाम पाकिस्तान हो गया

गुंज तो रही खुशियां, मगर

फिर भी सिसक रहा देश

रक्तपात-कत्लेआम से

घायल, रो रही धरती

तो बोलो कैसी आज़ादी

कैसा आज़ाद  देश।

बंटवारे की आफत में

रिश्ते-नाते-यारे

सब हो गए न्यारे

आतंकवाद और भ्रष्टाचार का

बोलबाला है चार दिशायें

नक्सलियों ने किया छलनी सीना

तो बोलो कैसी आज़ादी

कैसा आज़ाद देश।

दे गए झूठे नारे, झूठे वादे

अब ना किसी से शर्माते

कहने को आज़ाद ,मगर

ख्यालातों से गुलाम सभी

लूट जाते बेटे-बेटियां

अफसोस करते रह जाते हम

ज्ञान हमारा, मान हमारा

बिक रहा बाजारों में 

कठपुतली से बने रह गए

हुए इतने लाचार सभी

तो बोलो कैसी आज़ादी

कैसे आज़ाद हम।।

©shailla'z diary

Kalam Ko Salaam

(This is my first hindi post as a homage to Mr. Kalam, coincidently when I logged in after a longtime my blog asked me to write something in hindi ..lol)

11th President of India Dr. ‪#‎APJ‬ ‪#‎Abdul‬ ‪#‎Kalam‬ and Great ‪#‎Indian‬ ‪#‎Scientist‬ (Missile Man) Passed Away!

#‎कलामकोसलाम‬ ‪‬ ‪#‎restinpeace‬

रामेश्वरम् में जन्मा, बंदा खुदा का था वो,

स्वप्नदर्शी, दूरदर्शी, चलता रहा डगर वो,
कभी जा खेला DRDO-ISRO में,
कभी हेलीकॉप्टरों को,तो कभी रोकेटों को
बना डाला खिलौना,
पहुँचा पोकरण में,जा झंडा लहराया,
'भारत रत्न' ने नवाज़ा,तो-
'Missile Man' लोगो ने कह डाला,
ना मुश्किलों का भय, ना नाउम्मीदियों का डर,
अरबों की आवाज बन, भारत का ताज बन,
अकेला लड़ गया, अकेला बढ़ गया वो,
कविताएँ लिख गया वो,
लेख लिख गया वो,
जा,जा कर पढ़ ले,
क्या क्या छोड़ गया वो,
शिलांग में आज आ कर,
मन्द मन्द मुस्कुरा कर,
एक सफर पे था वो,
वहीं थम गया वो।।

©shailla'z diary

Morning Thought

What better day than today for your miracle to take place. :) 

Get your heart ready because something incredible is going to happen today! ANYTHING is possible!

*Metal Pieces*

People are like a metal;various color,texture,origin and values. I love all of their stories like how beautifully they can be moulded into something so much worthy. Every hand it passes through has an incident attached to it, whether it is candy of a kid, a cup of coffee with someone, flowers for someone's beloved or an incentive of a daily labor. I love collecting these metal pieces and their beautiful stories. Its endlessly fascinating, no matter what their design is, they're always worth something to someone and always retain their values.

A small crack

"One small crack does not mean that you are broken, it means that you were put to the test and you didn't fall apart."

It is rather ironic that today’s post offers hope; for a despondent nation is still trying to pick themselves up after their semi-final loss to Australia at the Cricket World cup'2015. In fact the raging debate especially on TV channels, So to begin with let us accept the fact that after a flawless run upto the semi-finals, we did get a nasty crack when playing a better team. Yet, while the margin of defeat, the manner of loss, the poor bowling, batting on display as well as the captaincy will be the subject of much debate the fact is that cricket will continue to be our most loved sport. More importantly, remember it was the same team that were totally outplayed in the Australian series that turned themselves around to have an unblemished run till the semi-finals; clearly proving that we can still mend the cracks and also crack the whip when we want to.

Each one of us would have at various times experienced failure. Most failures largely our own fault where we were disorganized or simply not prepared to succeed. However there could be times when failure hurt us deeply because it was unexpected, we felt humiliated or because we had prepared in all earnest to succeed. In almost all cases failure did not end our life, nor threatened our career or terminate our future. This clearly underscores an important characteristic of failure, that with very few exceptions, failure can only temporarily impact us. Overcoming failure is a matter of 4 simple steps:

Believing in yourself – We throw in the towel when we stop believing that we are capable of achieving what we set out to do. This is primarily because we focus on our limitations and weakness rather than on our strengths and our passion. Each one of us can grow in our chosen field of endeavor, provided we nourish it with the right amount of effort, intellect and discipline. When we do get the results the first time, see it as an opportunity to prepare better and succeed.

Letting time be the healer – When we fail, we must avoid cracking up and seeing lack of success as an end to our aspirations. Do mull over the reasons but do not brood over it forever. Let by gones be by gones but never forget the lesson.

Fresh initiative and diligent effort - Time also gives us an opportunity to go back to the drawing board, come up with fresh strategies and relaunch a fresh attempt with a brighter chance of success. Leveraging our strengths, adding new arsenal to overcome our limitations and honing up skills as also find other means to neutralize our weakness are the key to succeeding.

Not giving up and also knowing when to give up. – Perhaps this is rather difficult to comprehend for there are two diametrically opposite suggestions. Try till you succeed is an old adage and frankly an excellent piece of advice to follow. So what if a crack appears, one can still stick the pieces together and get things functional. However what happens when the cracks are too many and too fragmented. Perhaps the only way out is to replace. Essentially it means that the outer frame is still sturdy, it has tremendous utility but it may require a fresh coat or it may need to be fixed with fresh glue. In investment parlance knowing when to give up is called ‘cutting one’s losses’.

You may lose a thousand battles but you can still win the war ! Don’t give up- don’t give in; just give it your best shot ! even it means having to take a decision to cut your losses.

Try these:

1. List out 5 of your major failures. Think of atleast 3 reasons for your failure. Have those failures made you risk averse?
2. Try all of the following. Attempt each of it atleast 3 times ( each succeeding attempt being at least 3 days apart)

• Creating a drawing using any software
• Playing a card game / board game / indoor game that you have never played before
• Preparing a dish you have never cooked / attempted before
• Doing something that you were mortally fearful / apprehensive of eg. Holding a reptile in your hand / participating in a public speaking contest etc.

A True Story

A lady in a faded grey dress and her husband, dressed in a home-spun suit walked in timidly without an appointment into the Harvard University President’s outer office. The secretary could tell in a moment that such backwoods, country hicks had no business at Harvard and probably didn’t even deserve to be in Harvard.

“We want to see the President “the man said softly.

“He’ll be busy all day “the secretary snapped.

“We’ll wait” the lady replied.

For hours the secretary ignored them, hoping that the couple would finally become discouraged and go away. They didn’t and the secretary grew frustrated and finally decided to disturb the president..

“Maybe if you see them for a few minutes, they’ll leave” she said to him. The President, stern faced and with dignity, strutted toward the couple.

The lady told him “We had a son who attended Harvard for one year. He loved Harvard. He was happy here. But about a year ago, he was accidentally killed. My husband and I would like to erect a memorial to him, somewhere on campus.”

The president wasn’t touched….He was shocked. “Madam” he said, gruffly, “we can’t put up a statue for every person who attended Harvard and died. If we did, this place would look like a cemetery.”

“Oh, no,” the lady explained quickly ” We don’t want to erect a statue. We thought we would like to give a building to Harvard.”

The president rolled his eyes. He glanced at the gingham dress and homespun suit, and then exclaimed, “A building! Do you have any earthly idea how much a building costs? We have over seven and a half million dollars in the physical buildings here at Harvard.”

For a moment the lady was silent. The president was pleased. Maybe he could get rid of them now. The lady turned to her husband and said quietly,

“Is that all it costs to start a university? Why don’t we just start our own?”

Her husband nodded. The president’s face wilted in confusion and bewilderment. Mr. and Mrs. Leland Stanford got up and walked away, traveling to Palo Alto, California where they established the University that bears their name: - Stanford University, a memorial to a son that Harvard no longer cared about.

Most of the time we judge people by their outer appearance, which can be misleading. And in this impression, we tend to treat people badly by thinking they can do nothing for us. Thus we tend to lose our potential good friends, employees or customers. 
#trueFiction #inspiration